Well its been 3 weeks (+) since I posted an article, and it doesn’t seem like anyone noticed. At least I didn’t get e-mails from anyone inquiring: hey, we missed your words of wisdom, where have you been? You ‘been on vacation or something?’ Or, glad you haven’t posted, cannot stand your sh_t.
One of the things about writing for a blog, is that supposedly, the more you write the better. In fact, if you have something to say daily that’s very much encouraged. Yet, what this blog operating principle doesn’t take into account is that sometimes life jumps-up and bites you; events are such that circumstances grab your attention and force you to engage; where the last thing you are thinking about is writing for a blog. Yes, sadly its true- there are many more important things than sharing my words of wisdom.
Any way, I have been spending time fighting pain and doing the doctor shopping thing. Taking medications, having tests, and waiting around for someone to figure out what the h_ll is wrong with me. Again, I’m in the middle of a medical problem of sorts.
By now you must be wondering, where am I going with all of this? Well, the point is that I had one doctor, who has been treating me for nearly 10 years say: “well, I’m stumped and there’s not really anything I can do but make a couple of referrals. Guess I’ll see you in a couple of weeks for our regularly scheduled appointment.”
Keep in mind, at times, I cannot work because of the pain involved. As I left the office, I said to myself, I’m tired of this pain and frustration; wouldn’t it be nice if someone was helping me keep track of all the medical tests, findings and doctor’s visits? My family has been more than willing to help me get to the doctors and care for me when in acute pain, but I wanted someone to spearhead the overall medical effort, and help me figure out, what is wrong. The medical profession does a really good job of selling you on ‘the expert approach,’ so you rely on them, but leaves you hanging when the expert doesn’t know what to do.
Then it occurred to me, I did have someone to keep track of all the findings: ‘me.’ When you are in pain, you just want someone to care for you. Yet, there is a part of us that is always looking out for us; that is the Higher Soul. This is the part that is connected to the Light and guides us daily. Fortunately, I have myself to care for me, and it really doesn’t get any better than that.
My father used to say about difficult circumstances: ‘Life teaches you, no matter how difficult the problem, somehow, you always make it. Until the one time when you don’t. Then, after that, it really doesn’t matter.’
My favorite philosopher/blogger has another way of saying it: Remember, you have been Given enough for the journey.
Well, if you enjoyed the ramblings of this grey hair blogger, drop me a line: we writers need much encouragement.